for all we know.

i just realize something just now. i realize that i can't have everything i want or at least what i thought i would get. i mean, how should i know what my future would be? i thought i would get what i hoped for but maybe Allah have something better for me. or more suitable, maybe? who knows.

but i'm just a human being. i kept on hoping for the same thing over and over again and i guess, for me to let go of that hope would be hard. i have to see with my own eyes that it's not for me to keep that kinda hope. i just got to get something else to hope for. it's just plain hard.

i'm a dreamer. yes, i am. since i was small. i never stop dreaming and usually it's not something that would ensure me a bright future. just a simple dream that maybe everyone dream of. that is, to be loved. i know that sound stupid coming from me. but if only you know me, you would understand why love is that important to me. and why i'm craving for even a tiny bit of it. but of course you won't.

i guess. it's just not for me. it's not my time yet. maybe, i have to wait a bit longer. and just smile perhaps. so, smile :)




.inspired from a song.

leaving :(

this is my last day staying here in this semester. i'll be back on November. pray from my safe return.

i woke up at 6 am like everyday today. i woke that person up and i pack my stuff. when i was about to finish, it started to rain and it still raining.
alhamdulillah :)

i'm going to sit for my last paper today which is CTU. and which i haven't study yet. uhhh ~
i will. not to worry. (still am worry actually ==')

huhhhh.. i'm bored and sleepy. maybe i over slept a few hours.. hm. why am i updating all this crap. okay, enough.


assalamualaikum wbt.

if you have a minute

i like studying here. i finally have a reason to wake up ever morning, walk to class and to love this place. i never want to leave. however, i'm just gonna be here for a year. no, almost a year. short short time for me to keep on liking this place. i love my classmates even though they don't really talk to me. i will surely miss my crazy gang, syud, ajmal and myra. i mean, there's too much in here for me to learn and love. and there's YOU. the one who would never fail to made my day. of course you wouldn't know. next year i have to say goodbye which i really hate. a short goodbye maybe. i hope i could see them again when i left. i feel like crying right now.








hope, i will hold to that. because people come and people go. you have to move someday. i love you guys. if you have a minute, would you sit down and talk to me?










and YOU

what should i do?

hello and assalamualaikum everyone

i know that it's been awhile
sorry for that.

two days before my final exam for semester one.
time, it's getting faster and faster everyday
and you don't even notice it.
i only have a few months remaining
for me to stay here. and i'm scared
and sad

i love being here. even though it's only for a year
i love this place.
i faced a lot here. i cried and laugh
and i learn to be who i want to be
i'm not ready to face my future
not just yet

and i'm scared