yay! alhamdulillah dah habis interview.
=.=
sangat tak yakin dengan diri sendiri. okay, interview tu memang senang. by that i mean, interviewer tu tanya benda yang most people (dear TESLian) bagitau. diaorang tanya pasal current issue, so aku jawab la PPSMI tu. bla bla bla. and the interview went on for about 20 minutes~
aku sangat kecewa dengan setiap perkataan yang aku cakap. aku mengaku yang aku jarang cakap dalam bahasa melayu dengan formal. maksud aku, tatabahasa, ayat, semua la tersusun dengan baik. aku boleh tulis esei ke hape dengan baik dan ayat cun gila tapi bila cakap, NO
i need time to arrange my words or my thoughts. i can talk but i won't be satisfied with whatever words arrangement that come out of my mouth. i am that crazy over perfect sentences. and if i say something that will definitely make others ask more questions because they don't really get what i say, i'll go crazy. seriously
huh. tak, aku tak menyesal dapat interview tu. i blame myself completely. sebab aku tak prepare betul betul. aku tak practice cakap bahasa melayu dengan betul. and i suppose to speak better bahasa melayu! teruk betul. aku rasa macam orang yang baru belajar susun ayat =.=
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Sunday, May 27, 2012
questions :)
my answer :)
1. love Allah and rasul, smile, joke sometimes, be honest, mature-minded
2. i feel strongly that i'm on the right track.
3. tuesdays with morrie
4. wake up, solat subuh, shower, breakfast, tidy up my house, do laundry, solat zuhur, read a book, eat, solat asar, eat, solat maghrib, watch TV, eat maybe, solat isya' and sleep
5. thank you for being so sweet
6. okay i guess.
7. singing the same verse over and over again, forcing me to wake up, tap a pencil on a desk
repeatedly, laughing in the middle of the night, shouting my name repeatedly.
8. mee hailam and KFC
9. very. very. very!
10. i don't have it now. sorry.
11. my dad, my mom, my older sister, my bro, me and my younger sis
12. wow. hm.. let see. the TESL guys, hm. amal because he's different, syamil because he's neat, alan because he's adorable, farid because he looked mature, payeh because he's friendly.
13. it's okay. i can run, jump and do stuff with it. alhamdulillah
14. blue black tshirt and jeans. plus hijab and a pair of wedges
15. libra. nahh, i don't do zodiac
16. what if i didn't date?
17. i'm proud of me for changing into a better person.
18. dealing with big program
19. books, jeans, tshirts, food and perfume.
20. lightning, dogs, grasshopper and height
21. simple, loving, good job, suitable husband, cute babies, good environment and happy
22. meaning?
23. sweet moments with love ones.
24. i don't know.. hmmm
25. medsi interview
26. i'm too caring; i like that people can trust me and tell me their secrets.
27. be yourself and don't forget to smile
28. i want to stay in kedah and visit every country
29. be crazy. just crazy cute and not annoying
30. meeting all my friends. old ones and hug each one of them <3
Friday, May 25, 2012
Thursday, May 24, 2012
for hazmira
sorry ko punye lambat sebab request ko macam susah sangat =,=
so, aku pilih lagu lain. err, lagu yang ko tak pernah dengar kot.
tapi aku suka gila. heheh.
nak dengar yg original punya click link bawah ni
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gd6GwhBsGYA
comel gila lagu ni. aku sukeeew :) haha
Monday, May 21, 2012
my teacher. my ayah :)
masa dekat sekolah tadi. aku duduk depan cikgu. kawan kawan lain dekat sebelah.
aku dengar setiap ayat yang cikgu cakap. perhati betul betul cikgu yang aku sayang tu.
rindu la katakan. lama tak jumpa orang yang dah banyak membantu aku ni.
jadi aku perhati lagi. gerak geri dia. lepas tu aku perasan tangan dia.
mengeletar.
aku sedih.
cikgu aku dah tua.
dia sakit.
aku sebak sangat tadi.
tapi tahan.
terus senyum dan dengar.
aku dengar je apa yang cikgu cakap. aku taknak cakap sebab aku taknak ambil masa dia.
tapi dia tanya, jadi aku jawab. lepas tu dia teruskan bercakap. bagi nasihat.
aku bangga jadi anak didik dia. he's the best. percaya la.
aku taktau bila lagi aku akan jumpa cikgu aku ni. soon i hope.
he's will give you the opportunity if you give him a chance to help you guide yourself.
trust in him as i did.
cikgu zahari, please take care of yourself.
Sunday, May 20, 2012
adventure time!
Friday, May 18, 2012
dear friends
first of all, i would like to apologize to all of my dear friends. i feel that this is the best to tell all of you how i truly feel towards this matter that i'm about to tell you.
sayang sayang semua, yang dah berpunya tu. saya gembira sangat sebab awak dah jumpa orang yang faham awak, yang dapat jaga awak, yang dapat bimbing awak, yang dapat sayang awak. saya sendiri tak sabar nak makan nasi minyak :) hehe. serious.
tapi sayang sayang sekalian, disebabkan saya sayang sangat anda semua, saya terpaksa go against what you're having now. this boyfriend girlfriend relationship. saya tahu, saya pun pernah ada. lagi banyak experience! huh~ menyesal . dan saya juga pernah bagi nasihat here and there. yes, i was there for you when you need me :) aww. baik kan saya.
okay, back to the real deal. saya risau sebab saya sokong benda ni. please don't be mad. tapi korang pun tau that this is wrong. the relationship thingie. yang couple is forbidden. fullstop.
tapi, saya mengaku yang saya sendiri tengah cuba dengan sedaya upayanya untuk jauhkan diri dari insan insan yang saya claim (ceh) pernah fall in love with. seperti dia dan dia (ehem) you know who :P in other words, prevent myself from dating someone.
saya juga tak nak jadi penyebab korang yang ada partner tu separate. but at the same time, i don't wish for you to continue. please understand me. saya lebih suka dan bukan saya je, everyone and of course Allah, for both of you to be husband and wife. for real! yeah :) sure sweet gila kan? hehe.
saya dah takut awak. saya takut nak sokong benda yang salah. sebab salah kan. huhu. the guilt i'm feeling now T.T saya harapkan yang terbaik sebab saya sayang korang. dan saya nak sangat sokong your love in a good and acceptable way that is by marriage.
sayang sayang semua, whoever you are, wherever you are. please know that i love and care. dan saya akan selalu ada untuk awak semua. this is what i have to say and fuhhh... lega. hehe.
okay, serious. saya tahu apa yang saya harapkan ni susah for some of you tapi cuba okay? benda elok kan? marriage?
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
love
all i can say is,
he's there somewhere. maybe i've met him before
or maybe we'll meet soon in the future
but i know that there is someone for me
i'm very thankful of that. alhamdulillah
and yes, i've been in a relationship before
i don't think i'll be doing that again
yes, this is a big change for me
as i want to feel the real feeling that i should and will
feel when i'm in love with the one.
i'll see you soon i guess :)
Monday, May 7, 2012
awkward texting
i love talking to my friends
however, as normal as anyone would usually feel
when they text their friends to 'talk' about something,
i feel extremely awkward
i hardly text with my old friends
and if i do, we just text about normal boring stuff
like how are you, i miss you, or you know, the simple first thing that you text
and will end up with a reply of 'uh huh' or 'oh' or no reply at all
because you don't know what else to talk about
that's my care i'm afraid
maybe i'm the problem. i'm too awkward =.='
i don't know, texting is really not my thing.
talking to phone too.
i prefer face to face connection
because i always have something to talk about that way
huh, weird
BUT!
my friend hazmira is totally different
i don't feel the awkwardness stuff. stuff?
probably because she's the one who talk a lot
or ask questions that require long answer
or something like that
well. i guess this is my explanation to some of you
why i didn't reply you text or
reply, but a short awkward reply.
so yeahhh..
awkward
however, as normal as anyone would usually feel
when they text their friends to 'talk' about something,
i feel extremely awkward
i hardly text with my old friends
and if i do, we just text about normal boring stuff
like how are you, i miss you, or you know, the simple first thing that you text
and will end up with a reply of 'uh huh' or 'oh' or no reply at all
because you don't know what else to talk about
that's my care i'm afraid
maybe i'm the problem. i'm too awkward =.='
i don't know, texting is really not my thing.
talking to phone too.
i prefer face to face connection
because i always have something to talk about that way
huh, weird
BUT!
my friend hazmira is totally different
i don't feel the awkwardness stuff. stuff?
probably because she's the one who talk a lot
or ask questions that require long answer
or something like that
well. i guess this is my explanation to some of you
why i didn't reply you text or
reply, but a short awkward reply.
so yeahhh..
awkward
Friday, May 4, 2012
made a cake
i made this for my older sister. she kept on insisting me to do it
so after we got back from somewhere
i made it for her
i made two cups. this one up here
the other one is in the frige to be eaten tomorrow
it's a bit different from this one and i hope it taste better
sorry
Thursday, May 3, 2012
morning :)
i love morning :)
i remember how i used to hate waking up in the morning as a kid
i hate the waking up part not morning
i love the morning air and everything about it
i remember how i used to forget that i had a terrible time waking up
when i see the morning sky
dark blue and turning light blue and a bit orange
what a sight
not to mention the cold morning air
wonderful :)
the morning view from my old high school was breathtaking
i used to cycle to school and when i reached there
i would look up while pushing my bike to the school gate
and the clouds were amazing.
blue and orange. oh how i love my everyday morning
and now, i'm sitting on my bed beside the window
admiring the nature
small gift from Allah
everyday. alhamdulillah :)
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
A FRESH START
i had to admit that i don't feel quiet well before.
and don't ever trust me if i said that a lot of things had happened for the past few weeks
because there is actually one thing and ONE thing only that kept on bugging me
some might know what it is and for those who don't, i think it's better that way
this is a fresh start for me. again
i'm ignoring all of the bad things that kept hunting me everyday
because i had enough of it
it's time to rearrange everything again.
my dear dear friends,
i'm so thankful and happy that you're willing to help me with this problem of mine
thank you thank you thank you
especially mira
but please forget about the problem for a while. okay :)
i have four months before i start studying again, insyaAllah
and i will use it wisely
starting from today :)
no more YOU
yay :)
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