Bridge

I feel like I'm on a long bridge that I'm currently going back and forth trying to cross it. I'm somewhere between the past and the present. I feel like this might be normal for people in their 20s because as they are growing up, they are realizing that they have to cross a huge bridge to adulthood. Yes, they do carry the title, 'adult' but they are mainly still under their parents' care and haven't actually live independently on their own. Some might but being new in this adult world, they still need some kind of guidance from actual adults whoever they are. I'm not saying that every people in their 20s face this kind of problems. Some do actually make it early and become a fully functional adults so kudos to them. 

What I'm saying is, this crossing over the bridge is real. We're still somewhat longed for our simple life as a child now that we've seen how complicated adult world can be but we also want to grow up and take control over our lives. It's a battle. And for me personally, I can't face the fact that I'm growing up. I have made a home in this uncomfortable bridge and decided to remain on it for as long as I can. Why? Because I'm hella scared. Taking control means taking responsibilities on whatever action you choose to shape your life and that is scary in a way that you might mess up. It's easy to mess up when someone else is in change because you can just say sorry and move on with your life while the people in charge will find a way to fix your error. However, you're in charge when you're a grown up. No grown up will fix a mistake of another grown up. They literally have their own to take care of. 

So..

Where shall we stand now? Should we cross it and take up whatever risk that might come our way or should we wait for a while? I really can't say.