stories rumors stories

i try not to judge when i heard something new because hearing from a single person, two or more is never enough for me to conclude that it's true. people have different definition of things and it might not be the same as the true story. kan kan?

so it's unfair for me to not investigate the matter. if i do care to do a further investigation, i would. but if i don't think it's worth the time, i would just forget about it and carry on with my life. usually i would just ignore.

you can judge. but you have to know the whole story first and you need to know what to judge and why. you can't simple take the truth and throw it on the floor as if it's yours. no! you have to take a good care of it now that you know the truth. either you keep it and do nothing or keep it and help without making a commotion. try not to spread the story. it might worsen the situation. 

you would not like it if everyone knows your problem and even when it's already solved, people kept on talking about it and think that the problem is still there. tak suka kan?

so please. be smart and be wise. if you can't handle it, just shut your ears and ignore the stories. tambah lagi bila orang tu tak berkaitan dengan awak. 

kalau berkaitan, tolong dengan cara yang betul. nak menolong pun ada guideline tau. 

k?

AZAN

i love the sound of azan.

there are three mosque near my house and i can hear them everyday. growing up with that sound which is so close and so real to me is the best thing ever.
it is not the same as when you hear it on TV.

when i moved to melaka, i wasn't worried that much because my college was near to a mosque. i can hear the azan clearly.
but when i moved to shah alam for my degree, i was so worried.
i had to move out to a rental house which i can't really see any mosque nearby. but it was a housing area so i was certain that there must be at least one mosque or a surau.

the first thing that i did after unpacking my stuff was to just sit and wait for the azan.
it was near to zuhur so i waited.
and then, i heard the sweetest sound ever. azan.

i was so happy.
the fact that i have the opportunity to listen to the azan five times a day is a bliss.
and to think that there are some countries that forbid it because it's 'too loud'. that is so sad

so alhamdulillah.

k jom solat

appearance

if you want to be someone else, do as you please. try everything if you feel like it's worth it. by all means, go ahead. but remember that there will be consequences to the actions you're about to choose. be it good or bad.

i believe that you need to learn but learning is not all easy and absolutely not all will lead to something good. the best thing about yourself is that you have a brain and your brain is a really fast learner when it comes to experience. when you choose to do something that will not turn so pretty in the end, you will learn not to do it again. however, if you still choose to do it when you're already know that it is bad for you, you need to calm down and slap your face.

having an identity crisis is a normal thing when you're growing up. you have been taught that it is okay to behave in such way because you see that everyday. so your mind has been trained to follow it.

you care more of  your appearance than your personality. i get why you think that way because like i said, your brain perceive that as a normal thing to do. me, i do not care as much as you do because during my time, i care more of what i need to do to better myself than how to make myself look beautiful. 

but of course, appearance is important and we should take care of it. but if you care more on how you look than how you behave, it shows how much your have been brain washed to believe that you HAVE to look beautiful or handsome. and the sad fact is, almost everyone have the same mentality. 

imagine the type of nation crying over a broken nail, messy hair, shoes getting dirty, not fit enough, not stylish enough. imagine that. imagine the type of people who would be sooo depressed because they can't get an iphone. oh wait, that is currently happening. 

now you. like i said, you can try to be anyone that you like. do what they do. but will you still follow when you know that it will destroy you in the end? 

think. because people are starting to make gadgets think for them. so think now before your brain is just another organ that you need to be alive but not really something you need to survive. 

love

i'm not ready for this. 

though my heart is full of love, i'm not ready to share this love with another yet.

it is all mine and i will keep it safe. 

you have to wait because right now, i am more terrified than ever. 

i'm building walls all around me and it's getting taller and stronger. so please.

what's on your mind?

i came across the usual facebook status question -
what's on your mind?

my mind was completely blank when i read those four words. usually, those combination of words would trigger my brain to come up with something to answer the question. by not saying it out loud or posting it on the facebook wall of course. but just to answer it in my mind.

but today, nothing's up here. empty. so instead of trying to answer the question, i decided to post a blog about this empty mind of mine.

i don't know why nor i care to think of the reason why i don't have the answer. of course, i do have stuff running in my head all the time but it's just not the kind of thing where you would let it all out to the world. certainly not to answer that simple question as what's on my mind? 

i must say that i didn't contribute much in giving an input to the facebook wall or simply trying to share a bit of my life. no.

first of all, i don't feel like i know that much to contribute such knowledge that i might or might not use in the future. thus, making it a waste for sharing it but not applying it myself. (this is solely my opinion of the matter.)

secondly, i don't think people would care if i expose a part of my life to the internet. nope.

*the reason why i stop using twitter*

*that's a different story*

continue.

my mind is blank and unmoved from those four words.
maybe the question itself is never easy. maybe i need more time to think of what's on my mind because there is literally a lot of things in there.

maybe.



idk.

student

sayang. 

if i could pour out every bit of memory that i have in me to help you see the world, i would. because the world is a beautiful place to live in. 

sayang,

i would show you that there is a silver lining in every cloud. that the pain and suffering that you have will subside and you will be happy again. because there is no such thing as a useless suffering. everything is there for a reason. 

sayang, 

i would not want you to miss how sweet and painful love can be. because from the sweetness of love, you will find strength and faith. and the pain that get from love will make you treat it with respect. you will know that love is not something to be play with but if you treat it with care, you would the lucky one. 

sayang, 

as you grow older, you would realize that the people who used to hold your hands and guide you through every difficulties will slowly let it go. please be ready to stand up and keep on walking. 

sayang,

it's okay to be sad. it's okay to cry your eyes out. take a moment to let it all out and pull yourself up. but if you can't, please know that whatever happens, i would always love you. and that Allah is near. talk to Allah :)

sayang, 

when you get to see the same type of people that i have met, love them. try not to hate. you'll see why. 

sayang,

if i didn't get the chance to see you again,  know that i will always think of you. i know that the world is a beautiful place to live in and i know that you would see it too one day. take care sayang. i love you. 

those things.

enough is enough.

you hated this and you don't need it anymore. so stop.
don't cross the line that you have made.

stay away from it.

cari Allah.