change.

i have faults. sometimes i would realize it and sometimes i need people to say it to my face. but either way i will try to change once i know.

change. not an easy thing to do but trying isn't. trying will not ruin any part of your life but ignoring will. somehow.

i have faults and i fear people who noticed them. i fear their judgement and their wild mind. i take note of my faults and try to change to the better even though my effort might be useless to cover those people eyes but at least i know myself that i am bad in someways and i want to change so i tried. i did something.

yes, it is hurt to know that you're being dislike by people. but i wont choose to continue to be dislike. that does not mean that i'm afraid of being myself but trying not to be selfish.

my peeps :)

saya dan mak (syu)

captured: just now :)

this is my mak.
i'm her first daughter, the youngest is hanna
she have lots of children but non of us know who's our father
sobs T^T

k, ini merepek :)

short post

i admire someone who could pour every content of his/her heart.
not everyone could do that you know?
so i admire you, whoever you are :)

happy :)

lets all be happy and smile for a while. there's too much hate we faced everyday. lets not look at that side for a moment. just think of the time that made you smile and laugh. think of the little sweet moment that you forget. be happy. happy. happy. happy.

oh yeah, this is totally me, saying to myself. SMILE.

syukur

ya Allah. thank you for everything. thank you for granting my wishes.

takut sangat

yes. aku sangat takut. aku takut nak jumpa classmate aku esok. aku tak takut the fact that maybe i don't know them tapi the fact that aku kenal diaorang atau just cam muka. itu yang buat aku takut. takut takut takut. i don't know how to explain.

aku takut jugak sebab maybe diaorang kenal aku dan mungkin tak suka perangai aku. lepas tu ignore aku for the whole semester. Ya Allah, mintak jauh.

kalau diaorang tu a complete stranger aku boleh try to stay calm lagi.

aku mengaku yang aku tak pandai berkawan terutamanya dengan perempuan. aku takut dengan mulut diaorang. aku tak nak jadi penyebab diaorang dapat dosa atau aku dapat dosa. mungkin sebab aku dah ajar diri aku untuk jadi pendiam.

tapi tak bermaksud aku lagi senang kawan dengan lelaki. lagi la susah. aku segan sangat. dulu time sekolah lain. now, it's different. yes, i lagi comfortable kawan dengan lelaki sebab aku rapat dengan abang aku. dan aku tak suka kawan dengan perempuan time sekolah dulu sebab diaorang kuat bergossip.

i am a good friend but i'm not goos at starting a friendship. HELP