judge

i know that i'm not a good example. i have things that i regret of doing. i am or was that bad. but i plead you mercy. i don't wish to turn back to that path or continue staying. i want to move and be free of this misery. i only ask you to understand without a word coming out of your mouth. please, i beg you.

jadual waktu saya

this is pretty much my schedule for this week

MONDAY
dramatizing P. Ramlee's story
celebration and relaxation after acting :)

TUESDAY
reading presentation

WEDNESDAY
CTU test
summit writing skeletal outline

THURSDAY
write an argumentative essay

FRIDAY
overnight :) heh heh

SATURDAY
arabian night dinner

SUNDAY
sleep =,=

MOTIVATION

I STAND BY MY OWN

good huh? :) to be standing on your own or at least to know that you can.
and i know i could. i just need to give myself a chance. one chance, that's all i want.
give me that one chance by letting me fall. and i'll stand up by my own.

LET ME FALL!

let me go and find another. or buy a toy to play with. okay? i'm sure you can :)
yes, let me fall. let me cry and let me forget what i feel. i want to cry.

CRY

come on tears, fall, fall for your freedom. you can be free. you can reach the top again. yes you can :)

change.

i have faults. sometimes i would realize it and sometimes i need people to say it to my face. but either way i will try to change once i know.

change. not an easy thing to do but trying isn't. trying will not ruin any part of your life but ignoring will. somehow.

i have faults and i fear people who noticed them. i fear their judgement and their wild mind. i take note of my faults and try to change to the better even though my effort might be useless to cover those people eyes but at least i know myself that i am bad in someways and i want to change so i tried. i did something.

yes, it is hurt to know that you're being dislike by people. but i wont choose to continue to be dislike. that does not mean that i'm afraid of being myself but trying not to be selfish.

my peeps :)

saya dan mak (syu)

captured: just now :)

this is my mak.
i'm her first daughter, the youngest is hanna
she have lots of children but non of us know who's our father
sobs T^T

k, ini merepek :)

short post

i admire someone who could pour every content of his/her heart.
not everyone could do that you know?
so i admire you, whoever you are :)