Please.

Please people. Do understand that the three words, I LOVE YOU, are not something to be play with. Be serious will you? People might get hurt with those words. You don't simply say it to anyone and walk away as if it meant nothing. If it doesn't mean anything to you then fine. Just DON'T say it and keep your meaningless 'i love you' to yourself.

Seriously.

judgemental.

hah!

assalamualaikum. 

er. lama tak update. 

hi. i've been wanting to share this for quite some times. so here i go.

last few weeks i've been in my literature class which is twice a week to be exact, i had admit there is so many things that i know but i didn't dug deeper and grab that knowledge. basically, i just take them lightly before. the reason is, whatever that i know generally about something is only on the surface level where i ignore or take little notice of the real meaning or motives. which is sad.

i'm 19 and i only know this now and i feel stupid because i know stuff but i still do it because i don't feel like it's not that important or i just don't have the interest to care of others.

what i'm trying to explain here is the fact that we judge to easily and i'm not gonna talk about those judgement on a large scale. let us start with the small one. 

my lecturer said to us that we should always consider the other people side of story. i'm trying to put you yourself as the main character because you are the main character in your story. so you know your story but don't know others until you ask them or you find out yourself. until then, you can't really can't write your own conclusion on other's story when you don't even know their them. 

you're not the writer. they live their life. 

when we judge, it is sort if like we are not allowing the other people to make their own path. to change or to be better in life. maybe they wanted to change. maybe they had tried many many times but we are the one who pushed them away just because it does not suit our taste or the community. 

of course, what's bad is bad. nothing will change there but what's bad is not the doer but the things that they do. accept them as a human being. if they do bad things, it means they can do good as well. open your arms as wide as you can and know their story. 

it might not be as well written as our story so why don't we help them write and not force them to. 

hm?

how things work

when i should be writing my personal development journal, i write this instead

i know that you can't be happy all the time. i know that sometimes, you will be mad or sad or whatever. and i also know that you can try to change.

when you want something, go and get it. when you want things to be alright, make sure that it will. even though you can't control things, at least, you can try and whatever that you get in the end will be the best choice for you. Allah knows. you know know that too right?

look at the brighter sight of everything. just look at it and you will see. don't fill your head with negative stuff. i mean, why would you even do that? readers, please. try to look for it. even the smallest part of it. just look.

and that's when you will find happiness.

hey hi hello.

i'm not gonna write about me this time. shall we talk about you?

if you think that i'm talking about you, please, do shout out.

first. hi old friend.

i don't think you'll be reading this but i would like to thank you for everything. for being the first friend who stood by me. yes, you're the only one. you're alone but you stayed and for that, i'm very thankful. you were there for me and that's the only thing that i want at that moment. a friend, cause i don't have any. thank you again.

second. hello dearest. 

you. you're the best. it is more than 10 years right? you're my second family and i really love you. and i'm not ashamed to say that because i do. you're a part of me and i know that we don't really have the chance to see each other that much now but i just can't imagine my life without you. you're here with me and i know that even though we're far away, i know that you're okay. 

third. hey buddy.

i miss you. i really do. i want to talk to you. i want to tell you everything. you're my support. i know that i can live on my own but having you around is a huge bonus. like the necklace that i gave to you, you're my spark. whenever i'm down, just by looking at you, i know that i'll be fine. i don't know why but i guess that's the reason i gave you that necklace. so you wont forget how important you are to me. 

fourth. hi.

you're so comforting. sometimes annoying but in a good way. i have no worries when you're with me. somehow, i feel like i can face whatever problems that i had even though i really can't. not having you around is sort of boring. i miss you. really really do. i miss the crazy you. i miss listening to you talking or singing. i can be myself when i'm with you. which is good 

fifth. hi awak. 

rindu. i cried. finally. i miss you. thank you for everything. thank you so much. sayang awak. 

sixth. hey hey!

i cried the most when you leave. trust me. i really miss you and i want to go class with you again. sekali pun jadi la. please? T.T i don't want to write too much or else i would cry again. the thoughts of you and our memories is just.. ugrh.. don't cry!

be good okay? ❤

I don't know

Walaupun aku tak pasti dengan apa yang aku rasa selama ni dan aku tahu aku ni jenis yang unpredictable tapi aku tetap pegang pada goal yang sama. Aku tahu apa yang aku harapkan dan aku tahu juga yang mungkin aku tak akan dapat apa yang aku harapkan itu.

Aku tak tahu apa yang akan terjadi nanti tapi aku akan cuba terima sebab aku tahu Allah sayang hambaNya. Dan aku sangatlah lemah dan hina. Jadi aku akan CUBA.

I know i'm not that good. I do bad things that i'm not proud of. I'm not a good example. I know, i realize it every single time but i wish i realize it sooner so i won't have this dark dark past. I want to change and i hope i will.

Kolej, bilik, fakulti dan kelas

Kolej. Okay. Mula mula masuk aku tak focus sangat every detail yang ada kat situ. Jalan tengok bawah je. Lepas seminggu pun still tak berapa nak kisah dengan kolej tu. Cantik ke tak, ad berapa blok, dsb.

Bilik. Okay. Bilik untuk dua orang. Selesa. Tapi disebabkan ini kolej lama so bilik dia tak la selawa bilik kat tun hasan. Tapi syukur la. Feel dia tak sama tapi rasa selamat. Alhamdulillah.

Fakulti. Ya Allah, syukur sangat. Tempat dia cantik dan bersih. Kecil tapi memang sangat at home. Best. Still tak focus sangat in every detail yang ada. Library je sempat. Okay jugak library dia. Cool. Tak usha habis lagi.

Kelas pulak. Hm. Macam sekolah? Tak kesah pun. Hari ni baru start the first class. Classmates pun okay. Some. Tak kenal semua lagi. Hewhew.

Rasa dia lain sangat bila dah start degree. Macam lagi matang? Walaupun perangai macam lagi gedik. Err. Still, when it comes to studies ataupun menguruskan diri and stuff, aku rasa lagi matang. Okay la kan?

Tapi sibuk sangattttt... Banyak benda kena buat. Memang tk boleh main main dah. Huhh.

So friends, maaf la ye kalau tak dapat nak hangout selalu. Have fun with others and all the best.

Take care for now.

Sudah tiba

Hm.
Dah sampai uitm.

Cerita segala benda lepas seminggu okay.