it's like a indirect eye opener to all of my problems. i have been running and chasing everything all this time. i was so worried that i might mess up if i slow down or if i let myself go. it is so scary when i look around and all i see is people running and chasing just like i did before and it's like driving on the highway where you can't stop or even drive slowly. that is why i ran and overlooked everything that is not as important as my destination when the truth of the matter is, the destination is not as important as the journey. almost everyone knows that.
but i was so caught up with something that is so far away from me. i can't even remember what i did the week before because there is nothing to look back to. it as a race. you don't remember what you see when you're running. and at the end of the day, you're just too tired to even think of anything and just went to bed.
so sad.
i don't know how long will it takes for me to slow down again. one break at a time?
because the world is moving too fast and i want to see and to feel again before i stumble and fall.