Dear Nabilah,
We, my sisters and I, had the conversation about who will my brother end up with for the longest time. We talked about it every time we picture what our future will be. You see, we are very close. Mama and Abah taught us to always love and cherish each other. We had our differences and we had our good times but most importantly, we always stand by each other. Now, Ami, being the only boy in the family, has always been the popular one. We always want a piece of him and he was usually annoyed and needed his time but being a good brother that he always is, he entertained all of us silly sisters without many questions asked.
We love him deeply. My early childhood is filled with memories of him by my side. Since we're a year apart, we usually do most things together. Though I'm sure that my sisters have a fair share of memories they share with him, I have mine too and I self-claim that mine are the best, hehe. But, truly, as I grow up and as we all grow up, I saw my bother become the man the he always wanted to be. Someone who is good to his family and friends. Someone who is smart and independent. Someone who is strong but also very lovable. Someone who is not afraid to stand for what he believe in.
And when he brought home a girl with him one day, we lost our familiar ground for a moment and for that moment, I felt betrayed. All my life I never thought that it would be this soon. That all of the years talking about the girl that would steal his heart, that fateful day, I would meet you. We were somewhat angry because he did not tell any of us about you but decided to keep you a secret. I honestly needed time to adjust to the whole feeling and it took me so long to like you, more accurately, to open up to the idea. Still, I felt betrayed but I love him so I gave him a chance and took my sweet time to accept your existence in our little but happy family. I guess part of me hated that surprise and that sudden change.
I cannot lie when I say that I did everything that I can to remain as distant as possible. The reality did not sink in yet, that we were about to lose our one and only prince. Trust me, it was hard on everyone. And I personally find that it was hardest for me. Changing is never easy. As time goes by, I slowly let you in but still keeping my guard up. And when the day finally come, the engagement day, I let go of every bad thoughts and leave everything to God. And the only reason that I did that was because of my brother. I saw it in his eyes. He truly loves you. He opened his heart for you. And that is the one thing I cannot stop him from doing, which is to love.
He has loved each and every one of us with all his heart and I don't have the heart to stop him from loving whoever he chooses because if you truly love someone, you would love the things and the people that your lover loves. And I love Ami and he loves you, so I will love you too, for him. In time, InsyaAllah, I would love you for you. You have made our one and only prince happy and that is all I ever wanted. Trust that he will make you happy too.
So Nabilah, no matter how much I resist, Allah knows best. Allah has put you in this earth for many things and one of those things is to love my brother, my Ami. We love him so much. Please take a good care of him as he will do the same to you as he always does to us. I humbly let you in our small but happy family and may you find happiness with us now part of your life. We are not perfect, I am not perfect, but we will always be there for one another, to love and to hold. If you are willing, I am more than happy to call you family.
love.