late

yay! alhamdulillah dah habis interview. 

=.=

sangat tak yakin dengan diri sendiri. okay, interview tu memang senang. by that i mean, interviewer tu tanya benda yang most people (dear TESLian) bagitau. diaorang tanya pasal current issue, so aku jawab la PPSMI tu. bla bla bla. and the interview went on for about 20 minutes~

aku sangat kecewa dengan setiap perkataan yang aku cakap. aku mengaku yang aku jarang cakap dalam bahasa melayu dengan formal. maksud aku, tatabahasa, ayat, semua la tersusun dengan baik. aku boleh tulis esei ke hape dengan baik dan ayat cun gila tapi bila cakap, NO 

i need time to arrange my words or my thoughts. i can talk but i won't be satisfied with whatever words arrangement that come out of my mouth. i am that crazy over perfect sentences. and if i say something that will definitely make others ask more questions because they don't really get what i say, i'll go crazy. seriously 

huh. tak, aku tak menyesal dapat interview tu. i blame myself completely. sebab aku tak prepare betul betul. aku tak practice cakap bahasa melayu dengan betul. and i suppose to speak better bahasa melayu! teruk betul. aku rasa macam orang yang baru belajar susun ayat =.=

questions :)

my answer :)

1. love Allah and rasul, smile, joke sometimes, be honest, mature-minded 

2. i feel strongly that i'm on the right track. 

3. tuesdays with morrie

4. wake up, solat subuh, shower, breakfast, tidy up my house, do laundry, solat zuhur, read a book, eat, solat asar, eat, solat maghrib, watch TV, eat maybe, solat isya' and sleep

5. thank you for being so sweet

6. okay i guess. 

7. singing the same verse over and over again, forcing me to wake up, tap a pencil on a desk 

repeatedly, laughing in the middle of the night, shouting my name repeatedly. 

8. mee hailam and KFC 

9. very. very. very!

10. i don't have it now. sorry.

11. my dad, my mom, my older sister, my bro, me and my younger sis

12. wow. hm.. let see. the TESL guys, hm. amal because he's different, syamil because he's neat, alan because he's adorable, farid because he looked mature, payeh because he's friendly.

13. it's okay. i can run, jump and do stuff with it. alhamdulillah

14. blue black tshirt and jeans. plus hijab and a pair of wedges

15. libra. nahh, i don't do zodiac

16. what if i didn't date? 

17. i'm proud of me for changing into a better person. 

18. dealing with big program 

19. books, jeans, tshirts, food and perfume.

20. lightning, dogs, grasshopper and height 

21. simple, loving, good job, suitable husband, cute babies, good environment and happy

22. meaning?

23. sweet moments with love ones. 

24. i don't know.. hmmm

25. medsi interview

26. i'm too caring; i like that people can trust me and tell me their secrets. 

27. be yourself and don't forget to smile

28. i want to stay in kedah and visit every country 

29. be crazy. just crazy cute and not annoying

30. meeting all my friends. old ones and hug each one of them <3

meet my BIMO

you're mine! muahaha

=,=

for hazmira

sorry ko punye lambat sebab request ko macam susah sangat =,=

so, aku pilih lagu lain. err, lagu yang ko tak pernah dengar kot. 

tapi aku suka gila. heheh. 

nak dengar yg original punya click link bawah ni

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gd6GwhBsGYA


comel gila lagu ni. aku sukeeew :) haha

my teacher. my ayah :)

masa dekat sekolah tadi. aku duduk depan cikgu. kawan kawan lain dekat sebelah. 

aku dengar setiap ayat yang cikgu cakap. perhati betul betul cikgu yang aku sayang tu. 

rindu la katakan. lama tak jumpa orang yang dah banyak membantu aku ni. 

jadi aku perhati lagi. gerak geri dia. lepas tu aku perasan tangan dia.

mengeletar. 

aku sedih. 

cikgu aku dah tua.

dia sakit.

aku sebak sangat tadi.

tapi tahan. 

terus senyum dan dengar.

aku dengar je apa yang cikgu cakap. aku taknak cakap sebab aku taknak ambil masa dia. 

tapi dia tanya, jadi aku jawab. lepas tu dia teruskan bercakap. bagi nasihat. 

aku bangga jadi anak didik dia. he's the best. percaya la. 

aku taktau bila lagi aku akan jumpa cikgu aku ni. soon i hope. 

he's will give you the opportunity if you give him a chance to help you guide yourself. 

trust in him as i did. 

cikgu zahari, please take care of yourself. 

adventure time!

finn and jake & fiona and cake

prince gumball & princess bubblegum 

marceline & marshall lee

i love them. and yes, i watch cartoons. so?

dear friends

   first of all, i would like to apologize to all of my dear friends. i feel that this is the best to tell all of you how i truly feel towards this matter that i'm about to tell you. 

sayang sayang semua, yang dah berpunya tu. saya gembira sangat sebab awak dah jumpa orang yang faham awak, yang dapat jaga awak, yang dapat bimbing awak, yang dapat sayang awak. saya sendiri tak sabar nak makan nasi minyak :) hehe. serious. 

tapi sayang sayang sekalian, disebabkan saya sayang sangat anda semua, saya terpaksa go against what you're having now. this boyfriend girlfriend relationship. saya tahu, saya pun pernah ada. lagi banyak experience! huh~ menyesal . dan saya juga pernah bagi nasihat here and there. yes, i was there for you when you need me :) aww. baik kan saya. 

okay, back to the real deal. saya risau sebab saya sokong benda ni. please don't be mad. tapi korang pun tau that this is wrong. the relationship thingie. yang couple is forbidden. fullstop.

tapi, saya mengaku yang saya sendiri tengah cuba dengan sedaya upayanya untuk jauhkan diri dari insan insan yang saya claim (ceh) pernah fall in love with. seperti dia dan dia (ehem)    you know who :P in other words, prevent myself from dating someone. 

saya juga tak nak jadi penyebab korang yang ada partner tu separate. but at the same time, i don't wish for you to continue. please understand me. saya lebih suka dan bukan saya je, everyone and of course Allah, for both of you to be husband and wife. for real! yeah :) sure sweet gila kan? hehe. 

saya dah takut awak. saya takut nak sokong benda yang salah. sebab salah kan. huhu. the guilt i'm feeling now T.T saya harapkan yang terbaik sebab saya sayang korang. dan saya nak sangat sokong your love in a good and acceptable way that is by marriage.

and look at your happy faces. smiling at your partner. awww 

sayang sayang semua, whoever you are, wherever you are. please know that i love and care. dan saya akan selalu ada untuk awak semua. this is what i have to say and fuhhh... lega. hehe. 

okay, serious. saya tahu apa yang saya harapkan ni susah for some of you tapi cuba okay? benda elok kan? marriage? 

errrr... tak marah kan? huhu.  

I Believe - Irfan Makki feat. Maher Zain :)

four things

FOUR THINGS THAT I WILL BUY!

first

second

third 

fourth 

love

all i can say is, 

he's there somewhere. maybe i've met him before 

or maybe we'll meet soon in the future

but i know that there is someone for me

i'm very thankful of that. alhamdulillah

and yes, i've been in a relationship before

i don't think i'll be doing that again

yes, this is a big change for me

as i want to feel the real feeling that i should and will

feel when i'm in love with the one. 

i'll see you soon i guess :)

awkward texting

i love talking to my friends
however, as normal as anyone would usually feel
when they text their friends to 'talk' about something,
i feel extremely awkward

i hardly text with my old friends
and if i do, we just text about normal boring stuff
like how are you, i miss you, or you know, the simple first thing that you text
and will end up with a reply of 'uh huh' or 'oh' or no reply at all
because you don't know what else to talk about
that's my care i'm afraid

maybe i'm the problem. i'm too awkward =.='

i don't know, texting is really not my thing.
talking to phone too.
i prefer face to face connection
because i always have something to talk about that way
huh, weird

BUT!
my friend hazmira is totally different
i don't feel the awkwardness stuff. stuff?
probably because she's the one who talk a lot
or ask questions that require long answer
or something like that

well. i guess this is my explanation to some of you
why i didn't reply you text or
reply, but a short awkward reply.


so yeahhh..
awkward

made a cake

i made this for my older sister. she kept on insisting me to do it 

so after we got back from somewhere

i made it for her

i made two cups. this one up here 

the other one is in the frige to be eaten tomorrow

it's a bit different from this one and i hope it taste better

okay. so i couldn't make a chocolate cake 

sorry

morning :)

i love morning :)

i remember how i used to hate waking up in the morning as a kid

i hate the waking up part not morning

i love the morning air and everything about it

i remember how i used to forget that i had a terrible time waking up 

when i see the morning sky

dark blue and turning light blue and a bit orange

what a sight

not to mention the cold morning  air

wonderful :)

the morning view from my old high school was breathtaking 

i used to cycle to school and when i reached there

i would look up while pushing my bike to the school gate

and the clouds were amazing. 

blue and orange. oh how i love my everyday morning 

and now, i'm sitting on my bed beside the window

admiring the nature

small gift from Allah

everyday. alhamdulillah :)

A FRESH START

i had to admit that i don't feel quiet well before. 

and don't ever trust me if i said that a lot of things had happened for the past few weeks

because there is actually one thing and ONE thing only that kept on bugging me 

some might know what it is and for those who don't, i think it's better that way

this is a fresh start for me. again

i'm ignoring all of the bad things that kept hunting me everyday 

because i had enough of it

it's time to rearrange everything again. 

my dear dear friends, 

i'm so thankful and happy that you're willing to help me with this problem of mine 

thank you thank you thank you

especially mira

but please forget about the problem for a while. okay :)

i have four months before i start studying again, insyaAllah

and i will use it wisely 

starting from today :)

no more YOU

yay :)