love it. it's beautiful

i think people are so beautiful.
regardless of their skin colour or where they come from.
they are all beautiful in their own way.

it's the way they carry themselves. their background and their history. it is all in their blood and that is just magical.

i love the individuality. how every single detail is perfect.

it is sad that most people can't see it.
but if you have the chance, reach for it and try to feel it. it is beautiful and you would feel like you are falling deep into their history. it feels like you're speaking their language and living their life.
it's amazing.

you will feel like the world is too big to look at every detail
and when you do feel like that, look at the people around you. they are the world. look at their faces and you'll see how they have been walking around the world. and now they are here, with every little detail that they carry on from one generation to another.

isn't that amazing?

you yourself is a mixture of the world. simply beautiful.

look at yourself

what do you see?

i have learnt that you eyes can be trained. every single thing that you see is something that will be part of your life and it does not matter if you remember if or not. it is still there or was there in your brain. 

what do you make out of the things that you see is another different story. you see, people would see things in a different perspective and no one is the same. but what do you see would reflect on how you see yourself. eyes can be deceiving as most people have said before but your own interpretation made it deceitful. not really your eyes alone.

if you train your eyes to see the fault of others or things in general, your eyes would notice that before anything else. for example, you would notice how weird your friends dress or how this shoe does not match with that shirt or whatever things that you would notice. you would not notice the good thing first. it's always the bad thing and sometimes, your eyes forbid you to look at the best in things because you have trained it so well to look at the negative side of things. 

now, what would happen when you look in the mirror. what would you see? 

faults. nothing but faults. which would lead you to think that you're not perfect and you're ugly or what not. 

isn't that sad?

do you want to live your life not loving yourself? 

stories rumors stories

i try not to judge when i heard something new because hearing from a single person, two or more is never enough for me to conclude that it's true. people have different definition of things and it might not be the same as the true story. kan kan?

so it's unfair for me to not investigate the matter. if i do care to do a further investigation, i would. but if i don't think it's worth the time, i would just forget about it and carry on with my life. usually i would just ignore.

you can judge. but you have to know the whole story first and you need to know what to judge and why. you can't simple take the truth and throw it on the floor as if it's yours. no! you have to take a good care of it now that you know the truth. either you keep it and do nothing or keep it and help without making a commotion. try not to spread the story. it might worsen the situation. 

you would not like it if everyone knows your problem and even when it's already solved, people kept on talking about it and think that the problem is still there. tak suka kan?

so please. be smart and be wise. if you can't handle it, just shut your ears and ignore the stories. tambah lagi bila orang tu tak berkaitan dengan awak. 

kalau berkaitan, tolong dengan cara yang betul. nak menolong pun ada guideline tau. 

k?

AZAN

i love the sound of azan.

there are three mosque near my house and i can hear them everyday. growing up with that sound which is so close and so real to me is the best thing ever.
it is not the same as when you hear it on TV.

when i moved to melaka, i wasn't worried that much because my college was near to a mosque. i can hear the azan clearly.
but when i moved to shah alam for my degree, i was so worried.
i had to move out to a rental house which i can't really see any mosque nearby. but it was a housing area so i was certain that there must be at least one mosque or a surau.

the first thing that i did after unpacking my stuff was to just sit and wait for the azan.
it was near to zuhur so i waited.
and then, i heard the sweetest sound ever. azan.

i was so happy.
the fact that i have the opportunity to listen to the azan five times a day is a bliss.
and to think that there are some countries that forbid it because it's 'too loud'. that is so sad

so alhamdulillah.

k jom solat

appearance

if you want to be someone else, do as you please. try everything if you feel like it's worth it. by all means, go ahead. but remember that there will be consequences to the actions you're about to choose. be it good or bad.

i believe that you need to learn but learning is not all easy and absolutely not all will lead to something good. the best thing about yourself is that you have a brain and your brain is a really fast learner when it comes to experience. when you choose to do something that will not turn so pretty in the end, you will learn not to do it again. however, if you still choose to do it when you're already know that it is bad for you, you need to calm down and slap your face.

having an identity crisis is a normal thing when you're growing up. you have been taught that it is okay to behave in such way because you see that everyday. so your mind has been trained to follow it.

you care more of  your appearance than your personality. i get why you think that way because like i said, your brain perceive that as a normal thing to do. me, i do not care as much as you do because during my time, i care more of what i need to do to better myself than how to make myself look beautiful. 

but of course, appearance is important and we should take care of it. but if you care more on how you look than how you behave, it shows how much your have been brain washed to believe that you HAVE to look beautiful or handsome. and the sad fact is, almost everyone have the same mentality. 

imagine the type of nation crying over a broken nail, messy hair, shoes getting dirty, not fit enough, not stylish enough. imagine that. imagine the type of people who would be sooo depressed because they can't get an iphone. oh wait, that is currently happening. 

now you. like i said, you can try to be anyone that you like. do what they do. but will you still follow when you know that it will destroy you in the end? 

think. because people are starting to make gadgets think for them. so think now before your brain is just another organ that you need to be alive but not really something you need to survive.