On marriage (AGAIN!)

Hello readers!

I had a talk with my sister the other day about marriage. Since she's already married, it's natural for her, as my older sister, to advice me to get married as soon as possible. I get her point and I respect her views but being me, I know that marriage is not something I would want to focus on at the moment. I know myself too well and I know that I can't settle down just yet. There's so much I want to do and though I know I can always do it with someone, a husband, by my side, it would not be the same as doing things on my own. 

I guess part of me wishes for freedom. Coming from a very strict family, I grew up fine but having lack of exposure to the real world, I kinda want to explore the world once I get the sweet taste of freedom. Although technically I don't have total freedom, I still get to view the world on my own. (sometimes without the knowledge of my parents. sorry mama abah) And talking about freedom, I don't mean that all this time, my parents kept me in, lock in my room, NO! I meant, my parents were more careful when deciding to let me out into the 'wild'. I totally understand their decision but it has its pros and cons. 

The kind of freedom that I want is not as big as you think. I just wanted to go to places without the accompany of my parents or family. Again, don't get me wrong, I love going to places with them but it's not the same as going to places on my own. You learn more things when you're alone and when you're with family, you don't really experience things first hand. I find that I don't know even the very basic thing on how to survive in the real world because I always have someone else to do it for me. I don't want to live that way and I don't wish to learn to depend on other people for everything. 

So, getting married is still in the to do list but I'm not in a rush to scratch that off my to do list. Trust me, like other girls, I do want to have my own family, have babies and what not, but if I don't get the chance to do this for myself, I will never learn. So this freedom is not so much of a freedom but more of a learning process. So I hope this will clear up why I wish not to think of marriage at the moment.

If you're going through the same thing as I am, I highly encourage you to follow your heart, Do whatever is best for you and don't let other people decide things for you that you know you can't follow. But take their advises sebab tak semua yang pahit tu racun. They love you, that is why they want the best for you. I hope you get what you need in the future and I pray for happiness for everyone. Jangan stress kalau orang desak suruh kahwin. Mintak orang yang desak awak tu doakan yang terbaik je untuk awak. Lepas tu forget everything, pergi travel, have fun, take pictures banyak banyak! 

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