my time

i have my time here. i admit that it is not all fun at first and i don't find it easy to fit in. i tried, i cried but i didn't fought back. i accept and change.

i must say that i fail to win 1C class heart. i fail to be their friend and i don't say that i manage to win 2C class either. it's still the same but at least i quit trying so hard in 2C class. just go with the flow though it hurts.

i found friends in other places. hangout with them share good times and bad ones. practically became a family. protect each other and accept one another. i was no longer alone and i was happy cause i have my own little family here.

syuhada, hazmira and ajmal. my dearest.

i found love here. though i didn't manage to take a hold of that love, i found another and yes, i am happy. but i too have enemies. wait, no. i cause people to hate me. it hurts to be hate but i don't mind that now. hating is tiring. to care about it is even more tiring.

i learn so much as months past by. lots of memories to be missed. yes, 10 months i think. i have learnt that much and i wish i have more time with them. my family. but i think distance will make us remember and it will make us love each other even more. finally when we meet somewhere we will remember the times we had together and that will keep the bond together. forever until the day come for us to gather and we will feel young again. we will feel as if we're still in the era of asasi TESL and UiTM Alor Gajah is our home sweet home. nothing to worry and nothing to be afraid of.

5 day. after that 5 days, i will not see them for long time.


time hurts. but time will cure in the end. i will wait for that time to come.

IMY

this is what i will miss

i will miss waking up every morning seeing jaja stil sleeping and wake her uo for subuh or her waking me up and we pray side by side

i will miss the moment when i'm going to take a shower and i saw syu, mira or ajmal on my way there and we smile to each other

i will miss the time when i went to syu and ajmal's room just to say hi or make stupid jokes then leave.

i will miss the moment when they do silly things and i will record them in using ajmal's phone and when we look at the recording, we laugh out loud

i will miss mira sleeping next to me or the three of us together. ajmal, mira and me.

i will miss playing guitar with syu and sing though we are already sleepy and tired

i will miss us using 'saya' and 'awak'

i will miss walking to class with ajmal and we do stupid things on our way just because we're bored

i will miss trying to wake ajmal up in CTU class

i will miss looking forward to finish every class because i want to see syu and say hi to her

i will miss seeing mira's face arguing with ajmal if they meet after we finish class.

i will miss seeing how happy mira is with afiq

i will miss how crazy ajmal is with safwad

i will miss omet

i will miss ong ong

i will miss each and every stupid jokes me and ajmal made. like the helmet jokes

i will miss syu and her mother like ways

i will miss seeing mira cry and seeing ajmal cry.

i will miss the moment when syu and i sang at the karaoke box and constantly checking if someone's looking at us

i will miss every night when syu's gone mad and start to merepek

i will miss every small things we had together. there is more but this is all for now. i think what i will miss the most is..

i will miss talking to my ex roommate mira

i will miss talking to my classmate ajmal

i will miss talking to my mom syu

i will miss talking to my roommate jaja

and i will miss us talking together

FRIENDSHIP

for those you know me, you would probably know how important this is to me

.friendship.

i grew up loving a friend so very much. i love them more than i love myself. i would do anything. i mean anything just to make them happy or to see them smile even for awhile. i would. i will not let anything or anyone harm them in any way possible. i don't know what else i can do now but trust me that i will be there for each one of them if they need me.

i will surely hurt knowing that they wish to stop being my friend or lied to me about being a friend of mine. it hurts deeply and i don't think by saying a simple sorry could cure that wound. i shall not be betrayed in a friendship. never. i do not wish any of them to be hated my be. i don't want to hate them after all i did to them. no. there is love somewhere but there is also hate. the kind of hate that will cover every love that i have towards them and will finally vanish.

i don't ever what that to happen.

i just hate to hate people. i hate to hate my friends.








and one of you just cross the line. and i hate you so very much.

final exam

there's not much preparation here. ehem. it's true.

compare to my roommate, i'm just a lazy lazy girl.

yes, it's tomorrow and yes my book is over there and i'm here. with this laptop of mine :) hello book, how are you over there?

okay, let's face it. i'm nervous. very nervous.


you know, since it's the last time i would sit for an examination here in UiTM Melaka. this test is very important but i will try my best. i'll be okay. i think

anyways, tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow. nothing's easy eyy? i had to admit, waiting for tomorrow or the final exam really kills me. but i'm excited for it to end that it. so i don't have to worry anymore. and i could take a long long rest.


but i will be sad because i have too part with friends and of course, MY DEAR


we're so far away. mira in kedah, ajmal and syuhada in seremban. huhu.

ALL THE BEST