syukur

ya Allah. thank you for everything. thank you for granting my wishes.

takut sangat

yes. aku sangat takut. aku takut nak jumpa classmate aku esok. aku tak takut the fact that maybe i don't know them tapi the fact that aku kenal diaorang atau just cam muka. itu yang buat aku takut. takut takut takut. i don't know how to explain.

aku takut jugak sebab maybe diaorang kenal aku dan mungkin tak suka perangai aku. lepas tu ignore aku for the whole semester. Ya Allah, mintak jauh.

kalau diaorang tu a complete stranger aku boleh try to stay calm lagi.

aku mengaku yang aku tak pandai berkawan terutamanya dengan perempuan. aku takut dengan mulut diaorang. aku tak nak jadi penyebab diaorang dapat dosa atau aku dapat dosa. mungkin sebab aku dah ajar diri aku untuk jadi pendiam.

tapi tak bermaksud aku lagi senang kawan dengan lelaki. lagi la susah. aku segan sangat. dulu time sekolah lain. now, it's different. yes, i lagi comfortable kawan dengan lelaki sebab aku rapat dengan abang aku. dan aku tak suka kawan dengan perempuan time sekolah dulu sebab diaorang kuat bergossip.

i am a good friend but i'm not goos at starting a friendship. HELP

are you happy?

i bet you are.

i'm too sick to notice that before. i'm terribly sorry but i can see now. i'm glad that you're happy though. anyways, how are you?

my class

i have nothing more to say.

semester break.

i been reading a lot so i don't really have time to update anything. well, actually my laptop crash. literally. that's it, no more further information. so now, using my dad's laptop i seems to have some spare time to update at least two post today.

anyways, i've been trying to do few things during my one month of semester break. i tried to bake cookies for the first time ever. well, actually i did bake before but with my mom and sister help. yeah, i'm so proud of myself. so i did some chocolate chip cookies. my little sister requested me to do that because she just love them. so i did and it turns out well. again, i'm so proud of myself! oh, and it's very delicious too :)

i also learn a new song which was the meadow, one of the new moon soundtrack. i have a few errors here and there when i first play it. i don't really know how to read a piano sheet. so i have to listen to the song and memorize the melody before i could play it. i played by heart, mostly. it was a relief once i could play all of it without any errors or wrong keys.

i bought a new book last sunday and almost finish it. no, it's not a normal for kids book with 100 - 300 pages. no. i had that kind of book at home but i didn't read it. the book that i bought was the wind up bird by none other than haruki murakami. i couldn't stop reading it. i read for hours. that is something i never did before. usually i would read for an hour a day. usually.

i have about three weeks left and i'll be back in melaka. i scared. sobs.

QUOTES

“Death is not the opposite of life, but a part of it.”
― Haruki Murakami, Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman: 24 Stories

“Memories and thoughts age, just as people do. But certain thoughts can never age, and certain memories can never fade.”
― Haruki Murakami, The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle

“What makes us the most normal, is knowing that we're not normal.”
― Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

“Everyone may be ordinary, but they're not normal.”
― Haruki Murakami, Hard-boiled Wonderland and the End of the World