i decided to write this post because i feel the need to let everything out. like everything else in the world, keeping things in might be dangerous and harmful. it is best to let it out to the world. you may do it any way you like. talk about it, sing, dance, write. whatever you like, you need to let it out. trust me. keeping it in would not help. like i said, you may choose whichever way you like. if you don't like people knowing about it, then let it out secretly.
me, i like to write it out. sometimes sing or draw. depends.
right now, i feel like writing because i had been ignoring the need to write. been busy.
sorry self.
i've been thinking about my future a lot lately. i'm not worried about my future in this little place called earth because i know that i will die soon so i'll just go with the flow. i'm more worried of my future in the hereafter. i know that whatever i do in this world would determine my future in the hereafter.
i know.
that is why i'm worried.
in away, i have to pay more attention to what i do in this world.
like all human beings, i made mistakes. one after another. and in away, i'm terrified.
because some of the terrible things that i've done, it is no longer a mistake. it's a choice. choice.
i had the opportunity to choose and i chose to do it again. the so called 'mistakes'
which is, of course, no longer a mistake. nope.
should i feel bad?
yes.
always yes.
then why did i do it again?
*sigh*
i have the answer. the reason. the excuse.
but i don't want to say it because i know.
and that is sad.
keep walking and hope for the best?
i guess.