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i'm not ready to continue my studies

i'm not mentally and physically prepare for this. i mean, degree is a scary thing to even think about. the duration is basically longer than foundation obviously and that is scary.

if there is a precise manual that would help me prepare everything that i need to survive that long years then i would definitely be safe. and when i say precise manual, i do mean precise. that contains everything. like a book written by people with different experiences than can give a heads up. yes, i do mean everything. even the smallest thing or the unnecessary things.

but that's never gonna happen. life is an adventure they say and i do believe that everything comes with a risk. and experience is a way of learning. well,
preparation is a must to me and the more the better.

anyway, the other reason is i'm caught up with all of the books that i've read or currently reading. the imaginations that i've created or rather the author want me to think is too great that i felt as if i'm in the story itself. and yes, i do enjoy going to new places from time to time even though it's only in my mind. and of course i will read for hours.

but it's not like i hardly care about the real world. i admit that i don't really watch the news on TV because i don't watch TV that much but i am trying to catch up reading news papers instead. well, i don't really care about the news while studying before but now i have to.

i understand if you say that i'm anti social and all. but the fact is, i'm only like this when i'm at home where everything else seems to be less important than staying home, reading a book or something. true, i don' talk much. and i prefer it that way because i have nothing to talk about. nothing important that is. but when i do talk, i talk a lot.

well, i guess what i'm trying to say is the outside world is supper scary to me. i am scared but staying home is making it a lot more worst.

huh~ i'm not gonna think anymore. lets read! ^^